The Flair

so while its not the end of the year year, its nearing the end of the school year and thinking back I’ve done alot yet… it feels like its for not

I published a book… not even 10 copies have sold… but i published one!

I started really trying to bring up a website… its not active and doesn’t have anyone who is extremely interested in helping me do it… but its there and I still have it up (somehow)

I got one of my art pieces to be hung up in a public place…. its not sold yet…. but it could sell for more than 50 dollars if i’m lucky and putting something up publically is still amazing :)

I switched to the studio art program… kindof wasted the year realizing i needed to switch… but at least I did switch

sooo I’m honestly not sure if any of these things are actually good things or things that are more just wasted efforts. while my big dream is an active website… that doesn’t look like it’ll happen unless I find a group of people interested enough that they actively want to help… and while its a lot of work to make a book, maybe some person will find it and think its amazing enough to make it well known. maybe the art is just the start and by the end of next year I’ll be some artist everyone knows.

or maybe i’ll reach another dead end. who knows what will happen in the future

http://www.amazon.com/dp/1475162081/ref=cm_sw_r_fa_asp_vqsYD.029DNZR

I published one :D I is happy :)

so right now my site is having a logo contest where you can win a prize! (yes it is a tshirt with the logo on it!) just go here: http://handydandynotes.com/showthread.php?tid=140

if you haven’t done so… also sign up! not only is that the only way your submission would be eligiable but it can be fun too!

No matter how the future is

Or what will come soon

Through what others say

And our own thoughts betray

I’ll still be there

Standing by your side

We can go through thick

And get through thin

I’ll still stand by you

No one will hurt you

Not while I am around

Don’t keep it all to yourself

Let it all out

I won’t leave your side

When you are down

And need a hand up

I’ll be there for you

Standing by you

Bringing you back up

You don’t have to be alone

I’ll be close to you

And keep you safe

Holding you close

Nothing anyone can say

Could make me lose my love

It’ll still grow strong

Like a never ending fire

No matter if you are right or wrong

I’ll stand by you

Making sure you aren’t alone

So I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you.

When I was young

I had this fear

A fear for oneself

One so great

And so powerful

I would freeze

Stop moving

It was a fear against one

Against myself

The fear of death

And while I was young

It was my top fear

The one thing

That I didn’t understand

I couldn’t understand

Black, gone, darkness

That’s how I imagined it

Would I just be forgotten?

However, now is different

Now that I know you

Death doesn’t seem so big

It doesn’t seem great

And while it still does eat away

Crushing me down

There are two more fears I have

Ones greater to me

And they deal with you

And while the first is more of a habit

Something I can control

It is still there

For my nature shows

That I will push you away

And keep you far

Even though I want you

To keep you near

This habit

This nature of mine

I am scared it’ll do better

And while this is still in my control

The next fear isn’t

Not only is it great

That it plays on my other fear

It is also uncontrollable

I cannot control this one

Not like the others

It isn’t a habit

It isn’t within my doings

No control

For if something were to happen

Something to you

That I couldn’t stop

And you would disappear

I fear that more than anything

More than pushing people away

Or death itself

For if I lose you

I might lose myself

For you are apart of me

Yet separate individuals

So this uncontrollable fear

That I can not change

scares me more than death

A fear greater than the unknown

For it holds death and the unknown

Together and holds this fear down

And makes it large

If I were to lose

You.

Warm rooms

A roof overhead

Lights on

Power functioning

Stove cooking

Internet out

Car to drive

Job secured

Married happily

Water running

Healthy life

Robbery on fifth and main

School to learn

New equipment to use

Food to eat

Friends to talk to

Good Grades

Book is old and used

Money in hand

Games being played

Clubs to attend

Drawings to paint

Poems to write

Phone is dead

Living in a house

Enough to eat

Lots to drink

Plates to use

Cups all new

Dishwasher broken

Movies to watch

Clean water to wash

Toilet and sink

Mirror looking back

Medicine to use

Bills to pay